Secret Lives — Cindy

From Februs 40

Roy Tersley interviews Cindy and her partner, Michael.

Cindy, you first came to our attention as the subject of the Reader’s Photo of the Month in Janus 136 [see below].

Yes. I wasn’t sure whether to let Michael send in my pictures but once the editor confirmed he was interested, I got really excited.

And when you saw the magazine?

Oh, wow! There was this whole mixture of feelings. Like, what if anyone I knew saw them? Don’t I look great! Hey, that’s really me! Isn’t Michael lucky to have me in his life!

But no regrets?

Oh, no! Definitely, definitely not a shred of doubt that Michael was right about it.

So it was his idea, not yours?

Very much so. I wouldn’t exactly describe myself as a shrinking violet, but this was something new for me and I needed to think about it carefully.

Can you explain that a little more?

Well, we’ve got loads of Polaroids at home of me dressed up, or doing ‘girly’ poses or about to be spanked and stuff but they’ve always been just for us. We’ve never shown them to anyone, so it was a huge step to send off a batch to a magazine and to know that one or more might be published and looked at by thousands of strangers. I really was worried they might be seen by someone we knew who maybe wouldn’t be — er, well, sympathetic I suppose. But then, if they were reading the magazine in the first place, there shouldn’t be any problems should there? I suppose the other thing that worried me was about what would happen to the pictures and who else was going to see them. I mean, we sent them to the editor, but presumably the magazine has other staff who would be involved in looking and choosing pictures for publication, and the printers. I suppose I was worried that there might be a whole load of dirty old men leching away.

But that doesn’t worry you now?

Not really. We talked about it and decided that Janus is such a well-established magazine and you have so many girls posing for you that if it was seedy or anything dodgy was going on, there’d have been some Channel 5 documentary or an expose in the Sunday papers by now.

Good, I’m glad you said that: I know it’s a common concern of many people who would like to be involved. I’m glad you realise that we’re all very human and very responsible. So, that’s how you came to be in Janus, but how did you get into spanking in the first place?

We were talking about that on the way here. I’m not too sure. I mean, Michael’s the only person who’s ever actually spanked me and I don’t think I’d ever thought about it before I knew him. But he didn’t seduce me into it or anything, did you? We just sort of arrived at it together.

That’s right. I’m a couple of years older than Cindy, so I suppose I’ve knocked around a bit more than her (though I never take anything for granted!) but it wasn’t a great longing — unfulfilled or otherwise — with previous girlfriends. We just met, did conventional courting-type things and I found I wanted to spank her bottom. Simple as that really.

You make it sound as if spanking was a mutual discovery, but did one of you provide the lead in any way?

Well, she didn’t object.

It just felt right; like coming home. As Michael said, we went through all the usual stages of dating and getting more intimate and somehow we started getting more and more into his spanking me.

Do you remember the first time?

No. That probably sounds strange, but it kind of evolved. We had ordinary — you know, vanilla — sex and we both liked trying new positions and stuff but it was always spur of the moment, spontaneous. Then, after a while, I was over his knee and he was spanking me in my underwear as part of some rampant foreplay and I just suddenly stopped and said to him ‘we do this quite a lot don’t we?’ It sort of drew us up short and we spent ages talking about how it had come about, but, like we said, it just crept up on us and we couldn’t pinpoint when it had started.

If we thought about it carefully, it seemed that at some point I’d started squeezing Cindy’s buttocks while we were making love, and this grew to scratching and probably an odd slap if I could reach round enough and then somehow it became a regular feature that was as natural and essential as kissing.

Do you regard spanking as something intimate and private, or do you mix with other couples or go to some of the organised events that take place?

So far, it’s just been something we do in private. Being in Janus was a new departure for us and we thought of it as a momentary madness. But now we’ve come here today and we’re talking about it and sharing our experiences with you and the Februs readers, I suppose we might think about some other avenues.

So this could be a turning point in your lives?

Maybe, there’s no rush. We’ll just see what happens. Our relationship is very important to us. We’ve been together for a few years now and neither of us would want to do anything to jeopardise our relationship. So far everything’s just been between the two of us. Even doing this interview, we agreed we wouldn’t come unless I could be here and be the one to spank Cindy for the pictures. Doing it with strangers would be different. I’m not ruling it out, I’m just saying we won’t try it just for the sake of it. We’ll know if and when it’s right for us.

Like doing this interview?

Yes. I didn’t know about spanking magazines: I thought all men’s magazines were variations of girls lying back with their legs open and an odd article on expensive cars. Then I went up to Manchester to visit relatives and I saw Janus in a newsagents near the station. It was just a wild impulse but I reached up and took it off the shelf and then, of course, couldn’t reach to put it back, so I grabbed a newspaper and paid for them both. I didn’t even open it for three days, then I showed it to Michael.

We got hold of a couple more issues and really enjoyed reading all the letters aloud to each other and looking at the pictures and that was when I thought of sending in a couple of shots of Cindy.

Well, that leads us nicely to the main purpose of this meeting: perhaps you could tell us a little more about yourselves while I record you in action?

I’ve brought along a sort of schoolgirl outfit. I do dress up a lot at home (and when we go out for that matter). I tend to treat life as a kind of low-key fancy dress party, so one day I might be dressed in one of those lycra running suits and trainers, doing the supermarket shop, another I might be hanging out the laundry in a 1950’s cocktail dress with those pointy shoes and red lipstick. The uniform was picked up on a whim from a car boot sale — well, it was more or less my size and it was just after we’d realised how important spanking was becoming to us and it was a kind of private joke. I wear it sometimes when Michael’s working late and I have the time to put on my make-up and braid my hair so that I look a complete Lolita.

I know some people don’t approve of this look, but I think as long as the parties involved are adults and know that it’s a game, there’s nothing wrong with it. I mean, look at Cindy’s figure and that knowing look in her eye and you’re not going to mistake her for the genuine article are you?

It’s such a convenient outfit because it’s quite versatile. I can pile on loads of extras like the tie, sweater, blazer — even a hat — or we can do the shorthand version of skirt, blouse and socks. I can be the demure Head Girl or the St Trinian’s brat…

Or we can just take the whole lot off very quickly and be left with good old Cindy!

Do you have any favourite implements?

I like being hand-spanked. I know that Michael is fully in control, there will be no nasty surprises and we can alter the severity, speed and length of the spanking to suit our mood. I like this cane, too, but it really needs to be saved for when I’m very aroused or else used for just a couple of swift hard strokes to change the tempo of a session. I couldn’t take a prolonged caning like some of your girls seem to.

Anything else?

Well, you’ll notice I’m wearing plimsolls: Michael sometimes uses one of those over my knickers. I’m developing quite a taste for it: I can take quite a lot that way and the effect lasts for ages. I’m always incredibly randy after a good slippering like that!

But always over the green regulation knickers?

Oh yes, never on the bare, I really can’t stand it: it’s not just the pain, the whole sensation is different.

Do you make up storylines or identify reasons for a spanking?

Very occasionally. We generally like to be spontaneous but there have been occasions when we’ve used it as a way of avoiding a row. Like when Cindy went off and got this tattoo on her arm. I mean, it’s permanent; what’s it going to look like in 30 years time? She’s not even sure if it’s a genuine symbol or what happens if it’s something rude or contentious and she runs into a group of Chinese tourists?

You still seem to be quite put out about it. How long has she had it?

About six months. In fact, now that you mention it, I am still annoyed. Perhaps that could be my motivation, as they say in acting circles, for spanking her now?